Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Emo Mom

I asked for some space from Yakee and was wishful thinking about using the aircon 24/7. I got my wish in the form of confinement and hospital bills. For the first time ever in his life, he didn't sleep beside me. And I am actually cold from the a/c.

So I cried most of my afternoon yesterday, slept. Cried some more last night. It's not that I really worry he'd be crying and pining for Mommy... it's just that I wasn't ready for the separation. Plus I was feeling guilty already about not being in the best moods to play and read to him, and now this.

But he did tell me last night, "Mommy, don't worry. Yakee big boy."

Sigh.

He is a big boy already. Soon he may even be asking me about human growth hormone and what it does. Right now, he's hankering for swimming and playing with his cousin. And I think, stress eating.

Sigh.

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