So yes, goodbye to anything remotely resembling Branson vacations for us because we're looking at around P130k of hospital and doctor bills come November.
Reaching this decision wasn't easy. I have cried many tears over it, prayed over it, hoped for the best and second-guessed my motivations. But ultimately, the two reasons why I would go for a VBAC (avoiding surgery and cheaper delivery bills) don't count so much when pitted against all the other conditions and risks.
So now, I rest easy knowing when i'd be giving birth (provided no complications arise, or premature labor happens).
And well, I do need to rest because morning sickness is back... I am back to waking up at wee hours of the morning to eat, back to being unable to sleep, back to retching all the time over the littlest thing. I think my mood is bad for so many days because my body knows it's going to be stressed this way again.
Hay, Yamee. I do love you and your brother so much... but I really wish both of you gave me easier pregnancies. I swear, i'd still appreciate and love you as much without all these drama.
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